How are you doing? I hope that this letter reaches you in the best of health. I am doing okay so far. It is 8am and I’m in a café eating breakfast--I miss you so much which is more than I expected to. It’s funny because I’ve only known you for a month but it feels a lot longer than that and during that month you’ve made me do nothing but smile. You’ve honestly touched a special place in my heart. Normally I wouldn’t be telling you any of this because that would mean admitting that I do like you, but I am growing and I realize that there’s no point in holding things back and maybe regret it later.

I know we’ve both been holding things back from each other (thoughts and feelings) especially our feelings because neither of us wanted to get hurt and who could blame us knowing that I was getting ready to leave. Well that’s a part of life and they say everything happens for a reason. I don’t know what the reason is for us being thrown together in such a short space of time but I do have to say that it made me realize that not all men are completely bad. They’re far from perfect but not all bad. Thank you far that. Maybe that was the reason we were put together. I hope you see it and understand what I am saying.

There were a lot of times we’ve been together relaxing or whatever and many of those times you’ve asked me what I was thinking. The truth is (and brace yourself) I was thinking about you, and the reason I always told you I wasn’t thinking about anything was it would mean that I would have to let you in and I wasn’t prepared to do that. I tried so hard not to put any kind of feelings or emotions into what we were doing and just go with the flow but you made that so hard for me. You had to go and be nice didn’t you. I was prepared for the worst and instead I got the best. I had a lot of questions toward the end because I wanted to see what kind of person you really were.

Any ways as I was saying before, I wasn’t prepared to let you into my heart because that would mean getting hurt in the end and I noticed you weren’t doing much either to let me into your heart mainly for the same reasons. I think we’re all scared of getting hurt but life is also full of regrets and I don’t want this to be one of them.

I am now in Puerto Rico and I have an hour to kill before they start boarding my flight. So any ways are you pretty shocked by my letter up to this point or is this what you were more or less expecting? It doesn’t matter because I’ve got more to say. To tell you the truth no one’s ever made me feel the way you did. In the short space of time that I’ve known you, you’ve made me feel like someone so special. You’ve made me feel very beautiful, very appreciated, because of you I know that I can do and deserve much better than what I’ve been getting. No one ever appreciated me the way that you did not even a boy friend of almost 2 years. I guess maybe that ‘s part of why I’ve never been in love; I didn’t feel appreciated enough. In fact past relationships have made me doubt myself, doubt my confidence, my self worth, my looks, everything--You made me realize even more what I’ve always known and that was that I am a beautiful person both in and out and I only deserve the best. Thank you. You don’t realize how much you’ve done for me and it wasn’t just the compliments, it was the way you made me feel both inside and out..

If nothing else I do hope we can remain friends forever and I hope nothing but the best for you in life.