Tuan N'Gai
Little Brown Boy's Blues gives you a glimpse into the life and thoughts of the author, Tuan N'Gai.
While reading his personal journal entries, you will be taken on a powerful and poetic journey as you delve into themes ranging from activism, spirituality, religion, relationships, the state of the black community, sexuality and love.
Get ready to be educated, empowered, and encouraged. Little Brown Boy's Blues is sure to inspire everyone who reads to take action to make a positive change in their own lives and in the life of their community.
Tuan N’Gai was born and raised in Wichita Falls, Texas
where he was groomed to fulfill the call to ministry on his life. He is an
Ordained Minister, the former Associate Pastor of Administration and one of the
Co-Founders of Living Faith Covenant Church in Dallas, Texas.
He is also a celebrated speaker, workshop facilitator, worship leader, song
writer, poet, and choral conductor.
Tuan is the author of the acclaimed and
independently published book "Will I Go To Heaven? The Black Gay
Spiritual Dilemma". The
book has been distributed internationally, and has afforded him the opportunity
to travel extensively spreading the message of God’s all-inclusive love. He has
been a featured guest on Black Entertainment Television’s premier talk show
"Oh Drama!” heard and seen on television and radio talk shows, and his
writing has been printed in nationally known publications.
Tuan N’Gai is the Co-Founder of Operation:
REBIRTH (www.operationrebirth.com)
and is becoming more and more active in the fight for social
justice. He currently lives in the Atlanta Metropolitan area, and is
working on building other facets of his ministry.
"All the good black men are either dead, married, gay,
in jail or waiting to be born" is something I heard a young lady say
during a single’s Bible study. We were
discussing the possibility of some of us in the class never getting
married. Before making this statement,
she told the pastor he needed to come up with some more programs together so
some of the women in the class could have the hope of getting married. She then went on to give a dramatic speech
called “Who Is Left to Love the Black Woman?”
I was very offended.
And the whole time she was giving her lil’ speech, I was lookin’ at Mz.
Lady like she’d bumped her head. After
her speech, the pastor asked if any of the men in the class would like to
respond. So, you KNOW I raised my hand
right? And the pastor just shook his
head, because he KNEW what was coming.
I stood up in front of the class, cleared my throat, and
said, “I don’t think the problem here is ‘who’s left to love the black woman,
but rather who is qualified!” I also
told Mz. Lady that she owed every man in the class an apology because ALL OF US
in the class thought of ourselves as good men.
I mean, I’m a DAYUM good man. I’m
strong black man my parents raised me to be.
I stand up for what is right. I
pay my taxes. I have a job and I’m
independent. I love God. I’m respectful and respectable. Like I said, I’m a DAYUM good man.
After the Bible study, she was kinda swole with me for
stealing her thunder in the class. But
eventually she apologized and said it was not her intent to offend anyone in
the class that night.
That experience planted something in me and leads me to ask
the question "These days, what IS a good man?” Everyone has their own idea of what makes a man
"good,” so it's difficult to set a concrete definition. When asked that question, most of the single men
I asked said they consider themselves good men.
Which leads me to my next question…”If so many people (straight women
and gay men) are looking for ‘good men’, why are so many presumed good men
single? I could come up with only one
answer. Maybe not all the people who are
looking really are looking for a good man at all.
