Patricia A. McKnight: Author "My Justice"
In this amazing new book “Beyond Survivor”, the very talented author, Jan Frayne, takes his readers into the arena of childhood sexual abuse recovery, battles and conquests. As one of the rare published novels from a Male Childhood Sexual Abuse Survivor, Mr. Frayne allows his readers to feel the depth of shattered mind, body and soul.
“Beyond Survivor” will take you into the hurricane of emotion and strength as this boy conquers the demons and nightmares of his past. Readers will ride the rollercoaster of success as they travel through the many nightmares.
This expertly written novel shows the path of standing strong and achieving what all mankind desires; retrieving the happiness once destroyed by the wicked. This collection of outstanding poetry and prose is a must read for all as inspiration to prevail against the challenges put forth in the battle to obtain our own freedom.
Many of the myths surrounding child sexual abuse are related to gender. While things are slowly changing, there is still a common belief that child sexual abuse primarily happens to female victims and is perpetrated by male abusers. This does a terrible injustice to the many males who have been the victims of child sexual abuse. In many ways, it also minimises what is a traumatic experience whatever your gender.
I Speak For This Child
I speak for this child who lives deep inside
He was frightened and hurt, so he had to hide.
I speak for this child because now I am grown
Because now he knows now that he is not alone.
I speak for this child, hurt beyond belief
He knew nothing but pain and hate and grief
I speak for this child, he has such awful guilt
And because around him a wall he has built
I speak for this child, because I know I must
Because once again he must learn how to trust.
I speak for this child, I must speak out
Against this injustice there is no doubt
I speak for this child and his innocence lost
I cannot be silent, I know the cost
I speak for this child and for all others alike
I will not be voiceless; I will continue this fight
I speak for this child and will not silent be
Because this little child all grown up is me
I am a male survivor of childhood sexual abuse (CSA).
I love words, written, spoken, and unspoken.
For so many years my voice was not heard, I expressed myself through my writing.
As soon as I was able to read and write, I immersed myself in books. I was able to escape through the writings of others and eventually through my own attempts.
Writing enabled me to express the pain, and the shame, of what I experienced. It later helped me to cleanse myself, to heal through the medium of writing.
I seem to have lived an early life surrounded by abuse of some sort. At a very early age, I was sexually abused by my grandfather. This went on for about twelve years.
Others were invited to use me as they wished. There was also mental, emotional, and physical abuse from other family members.
My body was almost broken, my mind fractured, but no one seemed to notice. I grew up thinking it was my fault, I deserved it.
Male survivors live within a society where a stigma surrounds the abuse of boys. It took me a long time to find my voice, to be able to share the horrors that tormented me for over three decades. I hope my words help you to understand.